今年的圣诞。。is a really a White Christmas.

There is no snow.

But, I’ve nearly spent my Christmas in a hospital…

I was hospitalized.

Christmas is a season of giving and sharing.

I’ve truly understood what that means.

It means giving up your time – spend days lying on the hospital bed.

It means giving problem to others – Dad, Mum and Sis have to make daily trips to the hospital to visit the handicapped baby sister.

It means sharing joy and pain with your fellow patient mates in the same ward as you.

It’s the season of love - the sense of closeness that you share with your patient mates when all of them began snoring at night.

That is when, you know you are not alone.

Well, It’s quite a nice feeling.

今年的圣诞，很特别。我是坐着轮椅，来度过2006年的最后几天。

庆幸的是我不需要在医院过白色的圣诞节。

这也算是今年圣诞节的礼物。

住院的时候，我发现了一件事。

我真的不喜欢麻烦人。

我不喜欢按钮，叫护士小姐。

除非真的有需要，否则我不会求助。

我不喜欢看到父母亲，亲戚朋友们担心的样子。

看到他们一脸忧虑、茫然的表情，让我伤口更加痛。

才发现痛原来是一种subjective term.

眼泪只有在亲人面前狂飙。

眼泪只有在心疼亲人的时候，才狂飙。

否则，伤口的痛不会让我流泪。

原来，流泪是因为心痛。

过去总以为自己经不起皮肉上的疼痛。

现在才了解到：

世上最痛的感觉，是看到亲人那种茫然、心碎的眼神，却不愿让你看见。

虽然今年的圣诞不能到处去看璀璨夺目的标量彩灯，但是，我很庆幸今年的圣诞可以一家人一起度过。这样就很幸福了。

这次的意外中，也得到了一些启示。

失去的，我想只是一种遗憾。

不属于我的，我不会强求。更何况，还有更多的领域，等着我去开拓。

得到的，实在是太多太多了。

得到的一切将会尽在不言中。我会珍惜的。

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A BIG THANK YOU.. to all who have visited me in the hospital / at home, sent me msges, gave me a call to ask about my condition. Thanx a lot!

According to the MRI, Doc says there’s an inflammation at my hip bone and it is swollen. My case is really rare, thus they couldn’t diagnose what is the problem or what I can do to prevent similar accidents from happening. All they can do is keep giving me pain-killers and injections. Hopefully I can self-heal..(yea.. great docs I must say.. I will seek second opinion from another hospital or specialist of cos)

After discharging, I have to depend on wheelchair and clutches to move around (Cos.. I still cannot walk). I have to go to Nus using clutches. Damn.. Nus is a hilly region. I’m soo dead. Haha.. but I guess I will have stronger arms with this kind of training.

After a month or so, I have to go back for follow-ups. To ensure that I do not further strain my hip bone. If I do, I might need to go for an operation.

I shall pray hard.

I will take care of myself in the meantime.

I can deal with anything, with such great family, relatives and friends to support me and care for me.

.: Merry Christmas.. Ducky! :..