Monday, April 28, 2008
1st day of exam...
Having papers for 3 consecutive days is rlly tiring...
And today is onli my 1st day... but no inspiration when I was doing the paper.. damn. And did i mention tt its the mod tt i kinda dreaded most. Well, i'm glad tt its over.. 2 more days to go b4 i self-proclaim "HALF TIME!!! *BLOW WHISTLE*
One down...
things will get better...
*need to find back my inspiration and the form*
I can do it! Relax dear... :)
I just need more rest tts all... I shd jus go and sleep soon. hahaha!
Oh ya!!! 2 more hrs to...... WEILIN'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
(And the fond memories will jus come back to me every time i wish you 'happy birthday' :D Mugging in sch lib.. and tt hug we gave each other... and wat happens aft i left - which took me 1 yr to find out *touched*.. 2 yrs have passed and i wish you happiness and love in your life.)
Tou u may not see this entry, but its alright.. just feel lke jotting these feelings down in my little diary.. some heartfelt feelings.
And i shall end this entry in an anti-climax but absolutely rational manner.....
GO STUDY AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HAVE A GOOD SLEEP!!!!!!!
Having papers for 3 consecutive days is rlly tiring...
And today is onli my 1st day... but no inspiration when I was doing the paper.. damn. And did i mention tt its the mod tt i kinda dreaded most. Well, i'm glad tt its over.. 2 more days to go b4 i self-proclaim "HALF TIME!!! *BLOW WHISTLE*
One down...
things will get better...
*need to find back my inspiration and the form*
I can do it! Relax dear... :)
I just need more rest tts all... I shd jus go and sleep soon. hahaha!
Oh ya!!! 2 more hrs to...... WEILIN'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
(And the fond memories will jus come back to me every time i wish you 'happy birthday' :D Mugging in sch lib.. and tt hug we gave each other... and wat happens aft i left - which took me 1 yr to find out *touched*.. 2 yrs have passed and i wish you happiness and love in your life.)
Tou u may not see this entry, but its alright.. just feel lke jotting these feelings down in my little diary.. some heartfelt feelings.
And i shall end this entry in an anti-climax but absolutely rational manner.....
GO STUDY AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HAVE A GOOD SLEEP!!!!!!!
Friday, April 25, 2008
无言以对。
如果一直这样不说话，
会不会有一天，
真的没有话好说了？
面子和自尊，很难割舍。
可是，感觉一旦失去了，
就没有什么割不割舍可言了。
痛哭不舍
才是最真实的。
如果一直这样不说话，
会不会有一天，
真的没有话好说了？
面子和自尊，很难割舍。
可是，感觉一旦失去了，
就没有什么割不割舍可言了。
痛哭不舍
才是最真实的。
Friday, April 11, 2008
Graduating from school...
First of all, i just want to say tt i'm rlly quite amused by myself... not because I'm left with barely 2 weeks to study for my exams (and i haven started) but rather... by the fact that my exams dates are arranged back to back. But its alright, I have just planned my study time-table and its so fascinating i'm telling u. For e.g. for a particular module, I initially planned to spend 2 days on it. HAHAH!!! Nah.. in e end.. i tot i'm being rlly nasty to the module.. so i.. er.. allocated 3 days! WOAHAHHAHAH!
This is one special sem for many of my frens. Most of my closer frens are graduating this sem. That means school days would be officially over for them in just a few wks' time. I'll sure miss them... they are definitely one of the reasons for my fond memories of the uni days... :)
I have been wondering all the while.. whats next after graduation? I mean.. yeah.. START WORKING.. get a job... hopefully one tt offers good pay and good job prospect. Better still, a job that you enjoy doing.... wats new, huh? At this moment, this job thingie or tots is kinda at the back of my mind.. well.. partly becos i'm nt graduating this sem. What's going thru my mind is sth else.
In our society, we always know what to expect in our schooling years.. pri sch, sec sch, jc/poly, uni blah blah. But, the schooling years belong to just a phase of our lives. What happens next is the real tricky qn. Diversity in Experiences, mentality, ideals, environment and life will start to surface when you start working or leave school. Many things will change. Ya frens.. ya mentality.. ya lived realities.. ya socialization and the list goes on and on. The bond between old frens and good frens that you've cultivated thru out the schooling years ( which takes up so many years) will somehow change... it wont be so simple like before. The choice of our career.. the things we persue in life... marriage... overseas study... remaining single... they all make an impact. We all have multiple roles to play when we grow older and priority is no longer so simple like.. making sure that you do well for your studies. Things get alot more complex. Suddenly, the frens whom you hve come to know for so many years become so different from you. In the past, you were in the same school or the social circle is quite similar because the instituitions or values that legitimate insitiutions propagate are so similar or appear less diverse. The diversity suddenly imposes its presence when we are all ready ( i presume) to embark on a new journey in our lives - ready to assert our independence and choose the kind of lives we want to lead as an adult. At times, these ambitious adults get so caught up with their own realities, life and problems... that the simple, sweet, innocent memories of the schooling days seemed to drift even further away from them.
Schooling is not only about education. Its about socialization.. living in groups... and most importantly, to me, its about learning to live. There are so many things to learn or experience in our schooling years.. learning to make sense of what is expected from you, learning to make friends, learning to cope with your emotions when your grades are high or low, learning to give in, learning that we all have priorities and sacrifices are bound to be made somehow, learning to make decisions and be responsible with the consequences, and learning to negotiate your own self identity & independence. (gosh.. this feels lke a term paper.. hahaa) And schooling equips you with some basic skills to prepare you for the larger world out there.. when you get out to work etc..
Whatever it is, we are all learning to live and life is about learning... we learn different things at different phases of our lives. Some things that we cant fathom or make sense of... we tend to understand them better at a later part of our lives... we need to .. keep living and enjoy the process of self-discovery.
May graduation be the route towards better self-understanding and self-realization for my fellow frens! No matter what, you will alwys hold a special place in my heart :)
Love,
SX
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
If its too long and you dun understand wat i'm tokin about, its alright.
Read if you want to.
My tots are kinda not as well structured or organised here...
i'm rlly tired rite now. but my tots are always wandering ard in my head.
Now.. after blogging about these undisciplined tots,
my priorities shd be back to studying...
:)
EXAMS!!! WO LAI LE!!!
*charging my power*
First of all, i just want to say tt i'm rlly quite amused by myself... not because I'm left with barely 2 weeks to study for my exams (and i haven started) but rather... by the fact that my exams dates are arranged back to back. But its alright, I have just planned my study time-table and its so fascinating i'm telling u. For e.g. for a particular module, I initially planned to spend 2 days on it. HAHAH!!! Nah.. in e end.. i tot i'm being rlly nasty to the module.. so i.. er.. allocated 3 days! WOAHAHHAHAH!
This is one special sem for many of my frens. Most of my closer frens are graduating this sem. That means school days would be officially over for them in just a few wks' time. I'll sure miss them... they are definitely one of the reasons for my fond memories of the uni days... :)
I have been wondering all the while.. whats next after graduation? I mean.. yeah.. START WORKING.. get a job... hopefully one tt offers good pay and good job prospect. Better still, a job that you enjoy doing.... wats new, huh? At this moment, this job thingie or tots is kinda at the back of my mind.. well.. partly becos i'm nt graduating this sem. What's going thru my mind is sth else.
In our society, we always know what to expect in our schooling years.. pri sch, sec sch, jc/poly, uni blah blah. But, the schooling years belong to just a phase of our lives. What happens next is the real tricky qn. Diversity in Experiences, mentality, ideals, environment and life will start to surface when you start working or leave school. Many things will change. Ya frens.. ya mentality.. ya lived realities.. ya socialization and the list goes on and on. The bond between old frens and good frens that you've cultivated thru out the schooling years ( which takes up so many years) will somehow change... it wont be so simple like before. The choice of our career.. the things we persue in life... marriage... overseas study... remaining single... they all make an impact. We all have multiple roles to play when we grow older and priority is no longer so simple like.. making sure that you do well for your studies. Things get alot more complex. Suddenly, the frens whom you hve come to know for so many years become so different from you. In the past, you were in the same school or the social circle is quite similar because the instituitions or values that legitimate insitiutions propagate are so similar or appear less diverse. The diversity suddenly imposes its presence when we are all ready ( i presume) to embark on a new journey in our lives - ready to assert our independence and choose the kind of lives we want to lead as an adult. At times, these ambitious adults get so caught up with their own realities, life and problems... that the simple, sweet, innocent memories of the schooling days seemed to drift even further away from them.
Schooling is not only about education. Its about socialization.. living in groups... and most importantly, to me, its about learning to live. There are so many things to learn or experience in our schooling years.. learning to make sense of what is expected from you, learning to make friends, learning to cope with your emotions when your grades are high or low, learning to give in, learning that we all have priorities and sacrifices are bound to be made somehow, learning to make decisions and be responsible with the consequences, and learning to negotiate your own self identity & independence. (gosh.. this feels lke a term paper.. hahaa) And schooling equips you with some basic skills to prepare you for the larger world out there.. when you get out to work etc..
Whatever it is, we are all learning to live and life is about learning... we learn different things at different phases of our lives. Some things that we cant fathom or make sense of... we tend to understand them better at a later part of our lives... we need to .. keep living and enjoy the process of self-discovery.
May graduation be the route towards better self-understanding and self-realization for my fellow frens! No matter what, you will alwys hold a special place in my heart :)
Love,
SX
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
If its too long and you dun understand wat i'm tokin about, its alright.
Read if you want to.
My tots are kinda not as well structured or organised here...
i'm rlly tired rite now. but my tots are always wandering ard in my head.
Now.. after blogging about these undisciplined tots,
my priorities shd be back to studying...
:)
EXAMS!!! WO LAI LE!!!
*charging my power*
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Whats the point, really...
being tgt.. and ripping each other's heart lke tt.
but who to blame, really...
leave it alone...
leave me alone..
all will bound to be lonely...
somewhere, somewhat, somehow.
tt's life.
tts the point, really...
being tgt.. and ripping each other's heart lke tt.
but who to blame, really...
leave it alone...
leave me alone..
all will bound to be lonely...
somewhere, somewhat, somehow.
tt's life.
tts the point, really...
Thursday, April 03, 2008
And I'm always in love with it...
A greedy bite off the pinkish mass
And...
Pink became her desire.
A discerning eye for colour.
the hard-at-work candyman...
the flamboyous pulp, his pride.
Some penny for his tots...
2 different pictures ...
2 different stories...
It started off with cotton candy
And i'm always in love with it.
AHHHH...
SWEEEETTTTT... ;)
A greedy bite off the pinkish mass
And...
Pink became her desire.
A discerning eye for colour.
the hard-at-work candyman...the flamboyous pulp, his pride.
Some penny for his tots...
2 different pictures ...
2 different stories...
It started off with cotton candy
And i'm always in love with it.
AHHHH...
SWEEEETTTTT... ;)