Down



In a freaking down mood...


Anything jus pissed me off..


No.. it has got nothing to do w the past 2 papers..


I dunno wats happening to me... but i'm glad tt i'm graduating soon.


Maybe I just cant wait for the long awaited short holiday.


I need the break badly. To take a breather.


To recharge, to rest, to not walk along that unfamiliar stretch of road alone...


B4 i do so again.




It's the same path all along,

but the feeling is no longer the same.

Even if the same old people walk together along the same old pathway once again,

It wont be the same anymore.

Perhaps the nostalgia,

is the only consolation.


P.S: love the sunset today....

but i need to focus.
to go back to mugging. I can do it.

aja aja fighting!!!

For the heartfelt confessions...



a friend was telling me about her mixed feelings... anxieties, fear, sadness, complex feelings for her buddy.. whom she liked before and was not sure whether she still likes him or not.

It wasn't the usual story that sounded familiar.. and the little heart-wrenching feeling you feel for the unrequited love or not knowing wat to do w the complex emotions...


Cos its more complicated..

The friend is ill and needed to go for an operation.
The side effect of the operation: possible permanent memory loss.
The operation would be held one day before her exam ends.


We talked about this for quite a few occasions.
She struggled to meet him b4 the operation.. but she knows she would break down in front of him.. and din rlly know how to comfort him.


She finally toked about her greatest fear jus now...
And I was pretty shocked that she asked me this.. so .. directly... without any pretense...

I was shocked that she dared to ask such a difficult question to someone she hardly know..

Cos its rlly a tough question...




"wad shud i do if he forgets me?"


"forget the 9years of frenship..."


I thought of this question silently to myself the very first time she told me about this ...
even b4 she asked me jus now..
I din rlly hve an answer that time.. was jus thinkin abt it.. I was more preoccupied with other tots.

And i replied her from the bottom of my heart, without any pretense.
I din wana try to console her that maybe he wont lose his memory.. blah blah blah..
I din wana assure her that he needs her to be there for him... anymore.
Its time to face the harsh real question, that we all try to make sense of...


"then build more years of frenship w him...

create new memories w him...

its a new beginnin for him... give him a chance... to know u again"




And both of us felt the emotions stirring within us.



For the heartfelt confessions..

失落的季节。

身边的朋友似乎都感到不开心。
不同的原因，不同的机遇
心情却是一样的...低落。

失落的心情，
穿插在一个忙碌的季节。

刚刚回到家。
思绪还是有点儿杂乱。
可能因为外面太多闲杂的事务，天气又好冷。
而且，离开之前，知到朋友心情还是很低落。
她今晚不打算回家，我却回家。
很意外她会把事情告诉我，毕竟我们才刚认识不久。
我也只把她当作普通的朋友。
她问我，“Can you come out to do work?"
我知道我不可以。
但是我还是去陪她。
因为我有必要这么做。
虽然帮不上什么忙，但至少可以转移她的精神。



今天，雨不停地下着。
路人的脚步连绵不断。
有些人停下了脚步，在一旁歇脚。
外在的事物影响了你行驶的步伐。
但实际上，一切都没有改变。
停止了脚步，
心态依旧没有改变，
心里还是想着工作、想着自己。
站在离自己几公分的路人，也没察觉到。
即使有，也不重要。
自己比较重要。


难怪人会这么的不快乐。
即使外在的因素让我们停下了繁忙的脚步，很多时候，东西的本质却仍然没有改变。




祝愿所有的朋友：平安、快乐。