-失去控制-


睡着后，身体仿佛失去了知觉。
是灵魂神游了一番，还是已迷失了方向？
天终于亮了。
有时候，得耗去好大的力气才能醒过来。
能醒来，突然觉得好庆幸。
每一个眼皮的搅动，
都得来不易。



醒了又怎么样？
瘫在床上好几秒钟。
试着不让自己再次陷入昏迷中。
窘迫的姿态使精神一度澎湃。
阳光的照射，让仅存的微薄力气从躯体蒸发了。



再一次陷入困境。




醒来的感觉...
就像即将要入睡时的那种奇妙感觉。
就是没有感觉的感觉。



都一样的... ... 让人失去控制。

Guiding light from nature...


Who says that nature doesn't coexist with industrialisation?
Crimson brown shedding light on its cold, boring counterpart.
Illuminating the once dull, lifeless pale-looking giants.
Even in its reflection, hovering over the minute vulnerable whitish silouhette.
Yet, careful not to devour it, showing utmost respect.


Alas! The unity of strength and fraility...
The beginning of peace and harmony.





xxx Breath-taking Picture was captured in Vancouver, courtesy of eileen xxx

GIANT Duck alert!

I did mention tt i'll update u guys abt the growth of my 'duck grower'. So.. here it is!!!!




Pls.. be mentally prepared..








this is no joke...



not for the weak-hearted....




I got a shock the next morning aft i've 'planted' the duck in the basin of water...




So.. just a recap of how the original baby duck looked like...


A baby's favourite rubber ducky toy! :D small, cute and easy to handle...












The next day.....


sth definitely happened....

Baby duck has 'morphed' into a big big duck...


I cldnt believe my eyes.. so I took it out and placed it on a styrofoam dish..
ok.. yes.. e duck is er placed on the gas burner.. i rlly hve no intention to cook it ok!!!!
hahaha..


Even my softoy duck came to take a look at the giant duck.. It says, "amusing!!!!!"

And so .. the giant duck continues to grow.. and Grow and GROW!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! *scared stiff*
wohahaa.. this is so amusing rite?! kinda scary.. hahah..
Anws.. dun think it will grow any more.. shd be e max size (I hope). Accordin to the instruction sheet, it will shrink back to the original size if we take it out of the water and give it some sunlight..

;)

The thing with charming, poised, mature ladies..


Ok, i know in my previous entry.. i've mentioned tt i'll do my research and readings.. but but... but.. well today is 8/3/2008!


Happy Women's Day!!
wohahaha...


This song has been stuck in my head recently. I heard it from Jenny Tseng's concert dvd last week. She was singing this song with her daughter :) so sweet. Too bad, I couldn't find tt version. anw, found another version by Teresa Teng.

oh, did i mention tt i rlly like women who age with charm and confidence? Nvm the wrinkles.. the no longer slender silhouette u once had or aspire to have.. its abt the grace, the confidence and charm tt onli comes with age. And not all women can age with such grace. It takes time and precious life experience and of cos.. inner beauty.


I rlly prefer watching them act or sing than other younger ladies..
I dunno why.. but i hve a thing for mature.. confident and charming ladies..
poised and intelligent..
and tt kinda strength tt radiates from within..
hmm... nice~ ;)



Dedicating to all women .. ok.. maybe not all.. but women who are aging with grace.. or aspire to age with grace..
for those few who love their wrinkles..
and of cos .. anybody who likes jenny tseng, joan chen, tian2 niu1...
they rock and you rock lke meepok!
wohaahahah... ;p

playtime. half-time




2 lovely roses for the lovely gals..
(no rose for sexy suzie tou.. hahahah)
It was nice evening spent.. chionging out of sch.. watching movie.. nice dinner and great shopping. woahahha..
All in an evening's job. Hurray!


Bought a duck durin my shopping spree yesterday.. and guess wat.. its nt an ordinary duck ok! Its called 'duck grower' - it can grow up to 4 times its original size!!! and i saw e demo in e shop.. no kidding man.. will show u all e results soon. Its a giant duck!!!! Q.U.A.C.K !!!

YES!!! I bought 长江七号 softoy！*gasp* 七仔！！！！！so cute!!!!
~smile 七仔!~
七仔 landed on my bed! lets take a photo tgt :D hahah
Lastly, I shall end my little entry with a nice photo..
I simply love this photo.. i look so pro!!! And i love amy's camera of cos.. woahahhah!



Right..Time to get back to work..

.empty phase.


Today I went for my hip bone medical checkup and it was an outrageously 'amusing' experience with a doctor. Shall not comment too much.. but yup.. i'm not exactly pleased with the encounter.

~Sometimes when you are so high up there, you forgot how to listen to others and be humble~

If not for my hip bone, I wouldnt have tolerated you. Perhaps I would, bcos i din expect such behaviour coming from a doctor. Its amazing the kind of ppl you meet out there.. sometimes you rlly wonder why they turn out to be like tt. But its alright, we lead our own lives ultimately..as long as u are happy and it doesnt hurt me.. then why not? I dun heck care. My priority is to get my hip bone healed.

xxxx

Havent been in the best of mood these few days.. and i dun know why. There's nothing in particular bothering me actually. I'm constantly in the ''going-to-fall-asleep-mode" anytime or haven been doing much work yet damn tired mood. Yea.. i call tt a mood. haha.. hope my mood swing will be over soon.

I alwys felt tt ppl do live in phases.. we experience diff phases at diff parts of our lives. But there are alwys some basic phases tt keeps recurring to us indefinitely at some moments..consciously or unconsciously. Can be both a good thing and a bad thing.. isnt it? :p

The basic phases remind us tt we are humans afterall..




and an empty phase is still.. a phase you know?



xxxx

The busy city life..
the vibrant lightings at night...
with skyscrapers hovering over the small and insignificant individuals.
fragments of lonesomeness illuminated by darkness beyond the lightings.
You are not alone..
cos we are all alone.. together.

xxxx

Recently, I've found a picture tt makes me feel so soothing.. cant rlly explain the feelings exactly.. but well.. jus wana put it on my blog.


[photo taken by chih :) ]


the colour of the sky.. the colour of finland :)


And i suddenly miss being hugged by 'sunshine' ;)

Picking up the momentum...

I hven't been blogging for quite some time huh? haha..
Yeah.. when we lose momentum in doing sth.. lke writing, we need to find the momentum back at some pt of time.
Then we continue doing it, as if nothing has happened in between when you lost the momentum.
It can be so subtle tt you dun even know tt sth has happened along the way.
Perhaps, nothing rlly happened afterall.

xxxx

One week of term break has flew past.. well nt exactly.. 2 more days to be exact. Whatever.. ahha.. what hve i rlly done in e one week?! But come to think of it, its onli one short week.. hw exactly do u expect me to do lots of stuffs huh?!!! I've watched 2 movies, went out singing, hanging out w frens.. dj-ing.. doing some research (e thing w research.. it lingers in e grey region.. visible yet somewhat invisible kinda thing.. ahhah) and yea.. shopping. wohahaha! Nt bad man.. all in a week! hahaha!

I realised tt i've nv blogged abt CNY.

Some things are better left unsaid. No la.. dun get e wrong ideas.. it was a fun filled CNY and i had some great experiences w my relatives.. laughter and things tt set me thinkin abt life and other ppl's life.

Met up w a childhood fren last mth.. and I realised hw different we are.
As time passes, we grow up and lead different lifestyles.. been thru different things.. seen different things.. and feel things in a different way. I hve come to realise how different we hve grown up to be.. as individuals.. tou we did share a common childhood afterall. And its alright. As long as we are happy in our own lives.. as long as we were happy tgt when we were carefree kids. Tts wat matters, really. I can tok to anyone or pick up a friendly conversation if i want. But if i dun feel lke it.. if i dun feel lke tokin to u.. then tts it. As simple as tt. I'll jus smile politely when you tok. Nod when you need an affirmation. But definitely no chemistry or any heartwarming feeling. I dun wana be fake.
We are just different. And i'm glad tt we are. god bless him.